8/16/11 10:40 pm
Friendship is the base for relationships. We've been 'together' technically since april, but we met last July. we dont even have an anniversary (i guess we should figure one out just to have one lol) and we've technically not been on a "DATE" and we dont care. I love being close to him, texting, calling, & chatting 24/7. And physically being close too, as that was an issue with old BFs. I feel that physical & emotional spark and happiness now and I even see it improving me as a person.
I'm more artsy/crafty and even selling things on etsy and sold everything I brought to Leaky Con (HP con). I finally started my 401K and think about moving out. But before then I want to do some.... vanity/shallow work... as weird as it sounds, I didnt care for so long but now that I have a guy that I want to be proud to call me his GF- I've started the process to get braces . I actually am currently recovering from getting all of my wisdom teeth removed. A bit drugged so I havent done anything productive and decided to lurk LJ.
So after my wisdom teeth heal, I want to get braces next year. I've also made an appointment to remove a mole right next to my nose Ive hated foreverrrrr.. and I want to look into skin procedures, to clear skin up, get rid of spider veins etc. Eventually I want laser hair removal.
i bought this system that supposed to curl your hair easier. Ive always wanted curly hair, & had a failed perm. Hope this will work and not be too much of a pain to use.
I'm also slowly putting purple back in my hair. I got rid of it for my job, but Ive worked in an office for 4 years now, I think they know me well enough not to have an issue with it. Right now the roots & front have subtle violet, and as my black grows out I'll add more violet.
I eventually want to improve my wardrobe. I want to do 'nicer' goth styles, I usually do for special occasions or gothy-events. But I want to incorporate that image more into my daily life, and Ive always just been too worried about what people will think. I dont care, I am 23 and should be able to have hair & clothes how I want. Straight teeth, flawless skin, even if it requires cosmetic procedures-- I dont care. I dont want to do anything drastic like a boob job. Just skin, moles, hair removal, etc, I don't' think thats so wrong if it makes me feel more comfortable as a person to get these procedures done.
Ive been sitting here all day SO HAPPY realizing my wisdom teeth are out, thats been my obstacle for braces, and I just have a hard time doing these kinds of things, I just have issues speaking with people, making appointments, etc. Im really happy Im able to do these things now and the ball is rolling now at least for a better smile!
this may seem like an odd entry, but I feel idiotic telling any of my friends any of this. its kind of sad, I get a BF and now I turn extra shallow and focus on my looks more, but it makes me HAPPY to do that. My mouth is in pain and I feel drugged, yet all I can think of is that this is the first step to straight white teeth and i am ecstatic about that.
anyway, things are awesome. i was floating in a non-relationship - relationship 6 years, that just made me feel static, frumpy, no motivation. Then went through a hard time with a manipulative phoney. And now I am with someone that makes me want to be creative, craft, look how I want, and be pretty. I think about the future much more. Once I get the bulk of these cosmetic things out of the way, I hope to look into classes that tie into my job to give myself some career boost (yea yea, wrong order, but I dont care- *I* want to do things that make me happy first, then worry about my job.) I am content where I work and how much I make.. for now. I can see that changing, and when I change my mind, I will work to improve myself there too.
My friends are grand, had an amazing time at LeakyCon 2011, and my social circle is 98% HP friends and I love them.